Circling your, circling your, circling your head,
Contemplating everything you ever said
Now I see the truth, I got doubt
A different motive in your eyes and now I’m out
See you later
I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads (yeah)
Well now that’s over
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
[Chorus:]
(Fuck!)
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong and this is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
I won’t give everything away
[Verse 2:]
Conclusions manifest, your first impressions got to be your very best
I see you’re full of shit, and that’s alright
That’s how you play, I guess you’ll get through every night
Well now that’s over
I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads (yeah)
Well now that’s over
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
(Fuck!)
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong and this is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
I won’t give everything away
[Verse 3:]
I know, I know all about
I know, I know all about
I know, I know all about
I know, I know all about your motives inside, and your decision to hide
(Fuck!)
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong and this is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
I won’t give everything away
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
being productive=not paying attention in class+a desire to write
This week is quite hectic. You know how it goes. It's the week before finals. At least I am blessed in that all of my papers, presentations, projects, and tests were due earlier. This week is reckoning week as I'm handed all of those grades, and so far, it's been pretty good. I'm excited that my GPA is probably going to be in great shape at the end of this semester despite how worried I was with 18 hours and NO gen eds...it's been a rough one, but I've pulled through and learned so much about myself, stress, and have also been blessed with so many new people in my life.
The late night conversations with those who keep me sane, those who care, and those who frustrate and challenge me have all served to greatly change how I view leadership. I stumbled upon my speeches from previous banquets where I spoke about my presidential goals, and realized just how much my leadership has evolved. While the sun has been rising, to me, it is still a cool and crisp morning with the first rays of sunlight starting to warm up all that they touch. Their reach is being expanded as my peers trust me to take on greater roles, and to serve in a regional aspect. The warmth will only continue and stretch further as the year goes on and I am able to contact more and more individuals and start their dawn or allow them to start a new day.
Yes, cheesy analogy. It's from my first-ever presidential goals speech, and slightly revamped to fit the reality of now. I still find it appropriate. It shows a true envisioning of the big picture with a drastic lack of knowledge, but the willingness to learn and create a day that will benefit everyone involved. My next speech, since I did serve for two years [goodness, how they flew!] featured one of my all-time favorite quotes:
I am leaving so many things behind. Great relationships, a unique team, and many great blessings that I have had in past roles. However, I know that I need to challenge myself to grow, and I know that I am up to the challenge and have been inspired by some great individuals to continue to give back. I've been trying so hard to keep all of the emotions under control, but it's difficult. I want so badly to be there every step of the way leading everyone toward success. Saying goodbye is difficult, but I am trying to think of it as saying hello to something new, refreshing, and delightfully different.
To try to sum everything up, a huge thank you to everyone who has been so great to me for the past two years, and also to each and every one of you who have been my rock throughout. I hope the smiles and laughter combine with the hard work and ambitious goals that we have, and that we truly do work to change things up and make things even better. Leadership is so difficult to define, and each of you have helped to create my own definition. Thank you.
The late night conversations with those who keep me sane, those who care, and those who frustrate and challenge me have all served to greatly change how I view leadership. I stumbled upon my speeches from previous banquets where I spoke about my presidential goals, and realized just how much my leadership has evolved. While the sun has been rising, to me, it is still a cool and crisp morning with the first rays of sunlight starting to warm up all that they touch. Their reach is being expanded as my peers trust me to take on greater roles, and to serve in a regional aspect. The warmth will only continue and stretch further as the year goes on and I am able to contact more and more individuals and start their dawn or allow them to start a new day.
Yes, cheesy analogy. It's from my first-ever presidential goals speech, and slightly revamped to fit the reality of now. I still find it appropriate. It shows a true envisioning of the big picture with a drastic lack of knowledge, but the willingness to learn and create a day that will benefit everyone involved. My next speech, since I did serve for two years [goodness, how they flew!] featured one of my all-time favorite quotes:
You may wonder, 'How can I leave it all behind if I am just coming back to it? How can I make a new beginning if I simply return to the old?' The answer lies in the return. You will not come back to the 'same old thing.' What you return to has changed because you ahve changed. Your perceptions will be altered. You will not incorporate into the same body, status, or world you left behind. The river has been flowing while you were gone. Now it does not look like the same river.- Steven Foster [The Book of the Vision Quest]
I am leaving so many things behind. Great relationships, a unique team, and many great blessings that I have had in past roles. However, I know that I need to challenge myself to grow, and I know that I am up to the challenge and have been inspired by some great individuals to continue to give back. I've been trying so hard to keep all of the emotions under control, but it's difficult. I want so badly to be there every step of the way leading everyone toward success. Saying goodbye is difficult, but I am trying to think of it as saying hello to something new, refreshing, and delightfully different.
To try to sum everything up, a huge thank you to everyone who has been so great to me for the past two years, and also to each and every one of you who have been my rock throughout. I hope the smiles and laughter combine with the hard work and ambitious goals that we have, and that we truly do work to change things up and make things even better. Leadership is so difficult to define, and each of you have helped to create my own definition. Thank you.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
all-nighter freewrite
like today never happened. i said i loved you, you loved me too, goodness knows yesterday's a long time gone. heartbreaks heal, tears dry, you're remembered with a sigh. build the defenses, trust no one, loneliness is your refuge. it tears at your soul, your essence of being. two become one. but the experience was once and done...so you break. become whole again. your friends never like them anyway. hold the tears back - be strong, and besides, no one understands. nothing looks wrong...but everything rearranges itself. it still seems wrong to move on. you remember the most random things as you walk through, drive by, but you never stop. to stop is to concede, and that is weak. blink away those tears. emotional distress is to remain on some hidden plateau of the mind. be smart. run. do not hide, but separate yourself from all that was and focus on what is, and dwell about nothing but happiness in new circumstances.
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