all-nighter freewrite

like today never happened. i said i loved you, you loved me too, goodness knows yesterday's a long time gone. heartbreaks heal, tears dry, you're remembered with a sigh. build the defenses, trust no one, loneliness is your refuge. it tears at your soul, your essence of being. two become one. but the experience was once and done...so you break. become whole again. your friends never like them anyway. hold the tears back - be strong, and besides, no one understands. nothing looks wrong...but everything rearranges itself. it still seems wrong to move on. you remember the most random things as you walk through, drive by, but you never stop. to stop is to concede, and that is weak. blink away those tears. emotional distress is to remain on some hidden plateau of the mind. be smart. run. do not hide, but separate yourself from all that was and focus on what is, and dwell about nothing but happiness in new circumstances.