A Brief Synopsis

One thought continues to run through my mind. 

"We are legit."

It scares me a bit. 

I wonder what it is I should be doing.

I think that I've got a good grasp on it.

I strain against the dark of the unknown. 

Knowing I'm not alone,

Despite feeling otherwise, 

Creates a unique sense of challenge.

I want to be in complete control.

I don't want to have to jump in 

and have to deal with the consequences

and choices of others.

I struggle to maintain a sense of self

A sense of belonging, 

plus the confidence that I can

do all that I have before me and more.

The endless summer sun

makes me believe

that as long as I stay positive

that no matter what happens

I can continue to roll with the punches

and smile through the tears. 

I can make any thought I have reality.

Together we can make this happen.

However, you need to open up. 

It's difficult to understand what direction

you want me to take 

when you only speak 

to contradict.

I love you dearly

and have grown with you

for the past few years. 

However, despite the public perception

you've pushed me further away

distanced yourself even more

and refrained from explanation.